When I found out in the month of June this year we were pregnant, excited is an understatement to express the joy I felt. I always dreamed one day of having my own child and family. I blogged about the fears and challenges that I dealt with up until that point (“A Journey of Faith: Baby Adams). No amount of prior knowledge, study, or tale could have prepared me enough for the actual experience of pregnancy; expecting my firstborn. It was the beginning of a new season and experience. Whether or not I was ready, it was time to evaluate where I was, change my mindset, and see things from a new perspective. My life didn’t just shift naturally but spiritually as well.
I am thrilled to be expecting! My first pregnancy. My first born. A son. I thanked the Lord. It has been a LEARNING experience, to say the least. It wasn’t long before I realized I had to make a lot of recent changes, while others were going to happen whether I wanted them to or not. After one year of marriage, I was finally adjusting back to having a consistent prayer and study time, as well as consecration. Then first trimester morning sickness crept in on me like a thief in the middle of the night. I’m not sure who invented the terms “morning sickness” but I’d like to sit down and chat with them. My first-trimester experience was just terrible. Morning sickness was more like all day sickness for me. Everything seemed to make me nauseous, from food to the smell of certain things and people. Yes, people. I couldn’t keep anything down, it was difficult getting out of bed, and I became very forgetful. I did not want to be bothered. I remember telling my husband, after this pregnancy, I don’t want to hear anything about babies or being pregnant. I was not ready for the price I had to pay in the process of being pregnant. I kept telling the Lord, I’m grateful but I don’t think I could ever do this again. I clearly wanted my baby, but without the pain and suffering that came along with the process. I did find comfort in knowing that it is a temporary process, soon enough I would give birth and hold my son in my arms. Now, if I had to be pregnant for 2 years like an elephant my sentiments would have been completely different. Sadly, sometimes we’re pregnant for years and longer than God intend for us to be and don’t even realize it. We’re not aware of the things God places within us so we don’t expect anything. After the worse was behind me, it was easier to enjoy the process as the beautiful and miraculous thing that it is. It was time to prepare for what we were expecting. I could see and hear God through the process once I focused on the part of it that was in my control and leave the rest up to him. I am still learning and adjusting to the unexpected changes. I realized I was changing, maturing, and growing in ways I couldn’t have imagined. I gained new wisdom and knowledge about the Lord, life, myself as an individual, my walk with Christ, and the beautiful things that will be birth out of this season and process.
PREPARE TO RECEIVE WHAT YOU’RE EXPECTING.
I needed to start planning and make some changes for the child we’re expecting to birth. Once I accepted that my body would do what a pregnant body does I was able to focus on the things I needed to do to be ready to welcome my son. My husband and I had to change our budget and be even more mindful of our spending, a one-bedroom apartment was no longer big enough, we both needed to prepare our minds to become a family of three and start planning to parent our child, we had to start buying nursery items and other things the baby will need, and prepare to be even more intentional about cultivating our marriage. Most importantly, making sure neither one of us neglect our personal time with The One who is the source of it all, Jesus. The list goes on, as there are many changes in the process of expecting our first-born child. It is a blessing that requires work and preparation.
Being pregnant, I began to spend time meditating on the process of expecting a child and expecting something from God. The apostles in the book of Acts waiting for the comforter that Jesus promised them would come after he departed from them came to mind. According to dictionary to “expect” or “expecting” is defined as “to regard something as likely to happen”, “to regard someone as likely to do or be something”, “to believe that something or someone will arrive soon”, “to look forward to”, and “to anticipate the birth of (one’s child)”. When thinking of expecting one can think of being pregnant, carrying, believe strongly, anticipate, hope or hope for, look ahead to, look for, look forward to, count on, reckon, and see coming. With this in my read what happened in Acts 1 verses 1-14:
1 The former treatise have I made, O Theophilus, of all that Jesus began both to do and teach,
2 Until the day in which he was taken up, after that he through the Holy Ghost had given commandments unto the apostles whom he had chosen:
3 To whom also he shewed himself alive after his passion by many infallible proofs, being seen of them forty days, and speaking of the things pertaining to the kingdom of God:
4 And, being assembled together with them, commanded them that they should not depart from Jerusalem, but wait for the promise of the Father, which, saith he, ye have heard of me.
5 For John truly baptized with water; but ye shall be baptized with the Holy Ghost not many days hence.
6 When they therefore were come together, they asked of him, saying, Lord, wilt thou at this time restore again the kingdom to Israel?
7 And he said unto them, It is not for you to know the times or the seasons, which the Father hath put in his own power.
8 But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you: and ye shall be witnesses unto me both in Jerusalem, and in all Judaea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth.
9 And when he had spoken these things, while they beheld, he was taken up; and a cloud received him out of their sight.
10 And while they looked stedfastly toward heaven as he went up, behold, two men stood by them in white apparel;
11 Which also said, Ye men of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into heaven.
12 Then returned they unto Jerusalem from the mount called Olivet, which is from Jerusalem a sabbath day’s journey.
13 And when they were come in, they went up into an upper room, where abode both Peter, and James, and John, and Andrew, Philip, and Thomas, Bartholomew, and Matthew, James the son of Alphaeus, and Simon Zelotes, and Judas the brother of James.
14 These all continued with one accord in prayer and supplication, with the women, and Mary the mother of Jesus, and with his brethren.
ACTIVELY WAIT ON THE LORD!
Jesus commanded them to remain in Jerusalem until they received the gift that was promised to them, The Holy Ghost. In Acts 2 verses 1-4, the apostles received what they were expecting from God. Sometimes we’re in a hurry to get to the next step, next thing, or season of our lives not realizing we’re right where God wants us to be to receive our promise. Especially when we’re uncomfortable and not in a very pleasant season. It has been a rough process and I have experienced many discomforts on so many levels but I learned to focus on enjoying the process and be thankful for the blessing I’m expecting in due time. No matter how rough it gets my baby will not arrive any sooner or later than he is supposed to. However, I can continue to prepare for his arrival and practice patience in the process. Not only were apostles expecting the gift of the Holy Ghost, they actively waited, they were together and constantly united in prayer. They waited for the power they needed to continue the mission Jesus trusted them with. The Lord chose my husband and I to train up a child in the way he should go. We are flawed but I know his grace will be sufficient where we are weak. We are expecting everything God spoke concerning us and already purposed for the 2018 year.
As the year 2017 come to an end and you welcome the new year hope for that child or children, whether they be naturally or spiritually. Expect God to fulfill his promises to you. Look forward to that ministry you’ve been pregnant with. It’s time to give birth. Look for the Lord like you never have before. Anticipate for that business you’ve been planning and working on to prosper. Believe God strongly to perform his miracles in your life. His Word is true. Let your doubts and fears go. You can count on God no matter what it looks like. Walk by faith. ACTIVELY WAIT on the Lord; continue praying, continue reading his Word, continue to look for what you’re expecting and hoping for. Don’t abort your baby with doubts and fears.
EXPECT NOTHING LESS THAN GOD’S PROMISES!